The past few years have been challenging, to say the least. 2016 I realized my marriage was going to end, I was suicidal and depressed. 2017 I relocated, cocooned myself to protect, love and rebuild my emotional, mental, physical and spiritual health, mourn the loss of my marriage and decide on a course of action for the future. 2018 I decided to pay down debts, live frugally to obtain my goals. In January my ex-husband passed away, so I found myself mourning all over again–for what was, what would never be.
Now, I’ve had space and time to have a more objective view of myself. I’m liking what I see again. This year, 2018, I’ve had a few accomplishments–paid off two credit cards, rebuilding my apartment, clothes, kitchenware, etc. It’s been expensive, but worthwhile. Plus, I can foresee finally getting all my belongings out of storage. All the while on Social Security Disability Income. It hasn’t been easy. I made plans for long-term goals and have met them, ticking off each box as I meet them. Onto the next goal!
Also, I’ve started thinking of dating again–I’ve joined some dating websites, to see what interest there is. I’m not barreling out there but putting a toe out to see what nibbles. I’m more selective now, at 49 (50 next March), looking for financial stability, maturity, physical fitness in someone. I’ve grown the past few years and know who I am and what I want.
Looking forward to the rest of 2018 and seeing what the new year brings!